Hey Rue, I always struggle writing on here because you always used to moan about my lack of writing skills in English compared to the novels you would write, I’ve recently started to come to terms with everything by watching back the videos I have of us and looking at our photos but as much as I come to terms with everything it doesn’t seem to get easier and I feel insane guilt for not being there when you never failed to be there for me with all my silly little problems and the struggles of naming my future children, I think about you everyday and I hope everyone who has the pleasure of meeting and knowing you realises how lucky they were to have met such a funny kind person who at the same time Could talk sooo much S about people and will always have a place in my heart, forever xx