hey rue. i’ve really been struggling recently. ever since your passing, i’ve been left with a sense of blame. i always felt like i could’ve done more, i know deep down i couldn’t but i’m just left with this feeling of guilt. ever since then, i’ve tried to help everyone and anyone that i can. there’s this constant fear that i won’t be able to help everyone or anyone which is draining me. my best friend doesn’t even want to be associated with me anymore, calling me insufferable and a shit person. all i ever wanted was to help people. i just feel really lost. i wish you were here rue