hey rue, things have been really hectic lately with exams coming up and preparations for uni and it’s just giving me more reasons to think about you. I wish that you were here with us to experience it all. Nothing feels complete without you here, the table just feels so empty. Even though we drifted and we weren’t as close anymore, I can’t forget all the lessons we had together, or how you used to hold my hands because they were warm and yours were cold. I remember how, despite my jokes being absolutely horrendous, you still cheered me on and never made me feel alone and unheard. All the talks we had in the bus queue, attempting to learn Norwegian swear words and failing badly and I can’t forget the day I accidentally broke your bus card and you called me later complaining it didn’t work on the bus. I remember us sharing food in science, sneakily eating it when the teacher left the room and me always supplying you with hand sanitiser. Every achievement i make nowadays makes me think about you and my heart aches knowing i can’t see you anymore. It’s crazy thinking that this year will mark three years without you when it feels like so much more. I can’t seem to stop thinking about you and I miss you and I love you so much. I wish things were different.