i haven’t been on here since new years,, so have a quick update. i’m 17 now,, it feels unfair because i’m almost getting to the age we wanted to be and i know you were so close yet so far from it. i don’t know what i’m doing with my life at all but i feel even more lost today. 2 years went by so quickly,, it doesn’t feel real and it doesn’t make sense to me. i’ve been trying to put off any emotions,, but seeing you on stories and not being able to resist coming on here to read messages has made me realise i was stupid for that. i don’t know what to say,, you were always better at writing nice stuff so i’ll just let you know that i miss you and i’m so sorry. you deserved the world,, the sun and the stars. you’re missed by so many,, and i love you.