hey rue its been a while. I'm sorry I haven't rlly taken the time to come here and write anything, ig Ive been trying to push away the memories and mere thought of you bc even though it brings me a s mile to my face, I just cant seem to get over the pain in my heart thinking abt the fact that ur not here with us now. now that we're nearing the 2nd year mark, I've been trying to tell myself that I'm fine but it still hurts so much girl. I miss you and ur always gonna have a place in my heart. forever. I dont even know how to describe the longing of wanting to see ur face again and wanting to hear you laugh and see you smile.i dont know how im gonna get through next month, I'm just trying my best to keep it together rn. there's a part of me that still blames myself for not doing enough, but ik you wouldn't want me to think like that. love you rue <3