heyyy, its been a while since I came on here, tbh I feel kinda shit bc it almost feels like I just pushed my thoughts of you away. I had so much fun in the summer, being able to see my family again and I rlly thought things were going to change, but ig not. things have just gone back to how they were before. I rlly wish you were here bc I just miss being able to see u smile and have all my worries forgotten, when I spend my time with you bc you just always seem to know what to do. its been 2 weeks into college and it feels so different and so weird to experience it without you around. like I just keep thinking oh I'm doing my a-levels but rue isn't and it just doesn't sit right with me. I spoke to student services today and I just sobbed thinking abt you and having to talk abt you again. I miss you so much and Ik its selfish to wish, but I just wish you were here.