i havent found it in myself to send anything before, but I had a dream last night, and you were in it. its not the first time its happened, but it was the first time I came out of it smiling, and the first time I could think about you and not have to distract myself from breaking down. the dream wasnt long, and it didnt count for much, but your smile was exactly the same. I've known so many people but your smile was the only one to ever make me smile just from seeing it. its the one thing I dont think I could ever bring myself to forget about you. youre the most gorgeous person I've ever met and im so glad to have known you. I still have your hoodie, by the way. I should have given it back to you years ago, but we stopped talking as much and you stopped asking. I dont think ive ever worn something so much. or listened to a playlist as much as ours. I still go out to the spot we went to years ago with both of them, and try and so something happy there. I've started drawing again, and im sorry it took me so long to finish your prompt- I wish I could show you. I brought someone else there the other week and they picked one of the same flowers you did and gave it to me just like you did. it was the weirdest case of deja vu ive ever had. the only difference is theyre tall enough I can see over their head lol. I doubt you'd let me go for mocking you with your height but you literally mocked me daily for my spelling unless I bribed you with pictures of my cat, so you cant talk. you gave me a sketcjbook with the words 'you are loved' painted on it eith some flowers once, and ive finally filled it. I promised you I would show you everything in there, but I never got to shoe you any. ill make sure to. when I see you next. I hope you know now just how much what you said to me is true for you. I'd lose everything just to hug you again. I miss you so much, I love you<3