hey rue,,,i cant believe its nearly been a year. nothing feels real. not a day passes where you dont cross my mind and i remember how welcome you made me feel. im so afraid of forgetting those memories, those feelings, even your face, but on the other hand, you left such an impact on me that i dont think i ever could. i dream about you quite often, i dream of how energetic you were, your sense of humour, and our conversations. eating cake at the tree in the field. playing cards against humanity with each other. laughing until we’re breathless at some of the dumbest jokes ever. i remember when you told me that you were gonna dye your hair blue in the summer- you wouldve looked so good. and that you would give me an industrial piercing- i know it would have gone so bad but we would have had so many laughs during the process. i would give anything to relive my time with you. but for now, ill just cherish those memories in my heart. rest well <3