I’m so sorry for your loss, it must be such a difficult time to go through, my prayers go to you and your family during this difficult time. I’ve found comfort in the bible and bible based publications, and you may find this website comforting as many others do: https://www.jw.org/en/library/magazines/awake-no3-2018-nov-dec/this-issue-help-those-who-grieve/ I hope you are safe, and coping well -sofia